On Friday I had one of those days. You know the kind that don’t seem particularly different from any other, except for the fact that something is just wrong? On this day, I found myself on the verge of tears when the babysitter of one of my clients innocently asked “How are you?”
For the past year or so, I’ve planned to go to grad school this fall to pursue a career that I really, really want. I’ve worked hard to complete all my prerequisite courses, put together my application essays, suffer through the GRE, and fork over hundreds of dollars for admissions departments to evaluate whether or not I am “worthy” to be educated at their prestigious universities. But you know what they say about the “best laid plans.” Essentially, there was a huge clerical error, causing my applications to never be sent, that I didn’t find out about until it was too late. Obviously, this pissed me off. A lot. But I’ve been trying to get over it because there is truly nothing I can do about it.
So, back to Friday: I pouted all day, whined at my boyfriend when he left to play hockey, and flopped on the couch to watch tv alone. Since M wasn’t around, I couldn’t watch any of “our” shows that we had saved on the DVR so I flipped through the channels to find something to watch. I came across this episode of 20/20. Go ahead, click the link, I’ll wait.
So here I am, whining about not being able to immediately pursue an additional degree, while this woman’s children could no longer recognize her because she had her entire face burned off. Talk about first world problems. So, am I mad? Hell yes. But I need to move on because whining at my boyfriend and crying to my clients’ babysitters is helping neither my relationship nor career. I’ll figure things out eventually.
If you have a minute, please check out Stephanie’s blog, Nie Nie Dialogues. She’s amazing.
Have you had a disappointment or a bad day lately? How did you get the heck over it?